Happy Thanksgiving!

I’m off to Maryland to spend time with my dad and brother thanks to my daughter who got us roped in. Bless her heart! (She wasn’t there last year to witness the extreme chaos and to see her momma on the verge of starving to death and pillaging in my purse for a leftover cashew or crumb! My fam never really remembers that I can’t eat like them.)  If you’re like ME and blessed with a family that may drive you a little batty and cause you to shake like a Chihuahua just breathe and try to embrace it!  HA!  Who am I kidding?!?!?!?  Try embracing it with a drink in your hand and crushing up some melatonin and sprinkling it on their food! 

All kidding aside, I love my family and I wouldn’t be here without them. So I am very thankful for their craziness!

Also, I want to mention that this is the start of sadness and depression for some who may be feeling lonely. Maybe you’re missing love ones that are no longer here on earth. Or maybe you’re missing someone who isn’t in your life anymore. Try not to dwell on their absence, but be thankful for your memories, the good times, the laughter, the smiles, the hugs and kisses.  XOXOXOXO

Please be safe while traveling!

Happy Thanksgiving!

 

Still finding my om with RA…………..

Peace, Love and Light to all!

Every morning, when we wake up, we have twenty-four brand-new hours to live. What a precious gift! We have the capacity to live in a way that these twenty-four hours will bring peace, joy, and happiness to ourselves and others.

- Thich Nhat Hanh

Bet my week was more FUN than yours!

So my week was very awesome last week! Last Tuesday was my birthday, I turned 240 years old! DAMN! I look good! Lol ~ It was the Marine Corps birthday. Yep, the girl who’s afraid of spiders, bugs, black birds, dirt and a whole slew of other things once a Marine once upon a time ago! Wednesday was Veterans Day so another day of celebrating. How was I celebrating?!?!?

By cleaning out my whole digestive system. I gotta 2for deal! Cha-Ching! Not only was I so lucky to get an upper endoscopy procedure, but I was also gifted with a colonoscopy. Oh, lucky me! I’ll spare you the deets of how I really spent my Tuesday and Wednesday gearing up for Thursday! I get all my care at the VA hospital (thanks to the military, it’s not the best, but at least it's something) and If you have never been to one then you really never want to have to go there! It’s a cross of a men’s nursing home/ shelter & the saddest place ever!!! I’m always the token gal in there….. (It breaks my heart how these older veterans are treated!)

Finally Thursday comes and of course I had an afternoon appointment so by the time I arrived and checked in I basically turned into a pathetic being. When it came time to insert the iv I was so dehydrated the nurse poked my one hand couldn’t get the vein so on to the next she went she got it in just barely tho! (For days I had huge purple bruises on each hand!) I couldn’t wait to get that damn nap that they had promised me when I signed on for this! We finally get back to the procedure room and I thought here comes the nap…… NOPE the damn computer froze and couldn’t get started! Only me does this stuff happen to! I was demanding by this point that I wasn’t going to go through the prep to get these tests done again so they better figure something out!!! 20 minutes later and a new computer I finally got that fuckin nap! LOL  

I've always heard that the prep for the procedure was the worstist then the procedure itself and I'm here to say yeppers they were righto on that!

The testing was prompted because for years I’ve had digestive issues.  I have celiac disease and am also have a sever sensitivities to dairy, wheat, corn, soy and whey.  Bet you’re wondering what the hell I eat! A whole lota sushi, nuts, fruits and veggies…. It’s been a struggle! And yep, I’m hungry! But now my body is not digesting the nutrients nor the RA meds. I did end up walking out of the hospital with a dx of diverticulitis, gastritis and GERD.   

GRRRRRR…………….  Still am waiting on the results of the biopsy’s to get a more definite answer as to what’s going on.

And so the struggle continues ~ damn you RA

Still finding my om with RA…………..

Peace, Love and Light to all!

HAPPY SATURDAY EVERYONE! 

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Am I mad or angry?

(So it’s been a few! The last few weeks I have been dealing with a personal thing. You ever think that life is moving along great and you are so very excited about the future????? Only to wake up one day and have the love & happiness ripped right from you without any notice.  So now you’re left trying to pick up the pieces of your heart with an itty bitty broom and dustpan.  So that's where I have been in a sad depressed funk!)

 I was asked the other week if I was mad or angry that I was cursed with this disease. Hmm, I never really thought about it, I said. I then told them, nope that I was not. Who was I supposed to be upset with? Who was I to blame? Was karma once again getting me back because I ran a squirrel over with my kids in the car and I lied to them and said that I thought the little thing ran off so he was alive and not laying in the road like he really was! I don’t think so……. I thought about my dad. In a span of 1 year he was diagnosed with kidney cancer, lung cancer and bladder cancer! He wasn’t mad. He just said oh well it is what it is, things could always be worse. This has become my new mantra. I find it to be a waste of energy to actually become mad, angry or upset that I’m sick. What good is that going to do me? Absolutely nothing! How will it help me? It won’t! 

Sometimes it makes me sad as I am trying to find my “new” reality with this. This morning was a bit difficult. I wasn’t able to get down the stairs well this morning and almost fell so I thought that it would be best to just do the booty scoot down them. Guess I did too much walking and standing. Reality sets in and I wonder how much longer I can live in a two-story house. My dad has one of those chair lift thingy’s, I rode on it once and it made me nauseous! So I won’t be installing one of those. I already have a list of this and that need to be changed. The door handles for one. Sometimes the hands don’t work to grab and twist the knob.

I can’t use ziplock baggies anymore, so I have to get the ones with the slider top because half the time my fingers can't grab the bag and pull it apart. The doc told me that I should be walking with a cane. What?!?! Do they come in purple and bedazzled??!?! He was not amused and told me get over the vanity of it. I haven’t had the courage to get one yet. I was so clumsy with crutches last year. I can only imagine what a mess I would be. Driving has started to become a little difficult with holding the steering wheel. Soon I'm going to need someone to start driving Miss Jamie around! Each day I notice something new that's now a little more difficult to do.......

It’s the little things in life that I took for granted. Not anymore! I'm attempting to live each day as a fresh start!  We really must try to start living in the now! 

In the moment!  Not yesterday, a week ago or even last year. But, NOW.

 Still finding my om with RA…………..

Peace, Love and Light to all!